Yesterday was an utter fail for me. I mean UTTER FAIL. As a stay at home mom, I pride myself on that. The whole entire reason I wanted to be a work at home mom is so that I could be available to my kids when they want to go do something fun — like swimming. Imagine my surprise yesterday when my daughter blurted out at me — “I just wish you would FOR ONCE mom go do something fun with me instead of working. All you ever tell me is you have a million things you need to get done.”
Her words stung like peroxide being poured over a fresh cut. I felt like I had been slapped. My first reaction was to snap back at her and tell her ALL the reasons that I worked. I listed every single one and felt pretty proud of myself. But later, the more I thought about what I said, the more I felt like a heel and the worst parent in the world. I had turned into that mom that says NO about everything.
I do not want to be that mom. I want to be a mom who says yes to fun. In fact, this morning, I was reading Life as Mom and she wrote about the same thing. It broke my heart to read those words, but I need to start saying yes more.
I am honestly ashamed of myself. I can’t believe how I have let my job and blogging about stuff take a front seat to time with my family. My daughter is right. I put so many things in front of them because sitting here and writing these posts are so much easier than packing everything up and going to spend the day enjoying my daughter.
Really — it’s not, but in my mind it is.
So how can I change that? How can I go from a NO mom to a Yes Mom? Here is how I plan on doing that.
I talked about my one word for this year being Balance and how I needed to put things in their proper place. The year is half over and I have not even done that yet. It’s high time I start that. For starters, I cut back to part time at work hoping to gain more time with my family and focus on what is truly important.
Just do it
When I am tempted to say no, I will say yes. Yes to swimming for a couple of hours. Yes to making cookies with my children. Yes to watching a movie together. Yes to snuggling on the couch at night instead of working.
Create an online schedule and stick to it
This one is hard for me because I will think to myself — just a quick check and that will be it. However, if I ever open my computer — that is all it takes and I will online for at least 2 hours. I am going to work on an online schedule and do my best to stick to it.
Those are some things that I plan on doing this year — this summer. What about you? Do you find yourself being a NO mom? Now is the time to change that.