Yesterday, Kayla and I headed to Hopkinsville to celebrate my mother-in-law’s birthday. We were both pretty excited about it. There is nothing more that we love, than spending time with her and making her feel special.
Anyway, on my way there, my mind was racing in a ton of different directions. I kept telling myself, there is no way that this dream of yours — of writing is ever going to happen. You cannot afford to give up anything in your life right now to make this happen. What if you can’t make ends meet? What if no one is there? What if you fail?
Yes– this is not the first time I have had this conversation with myself. I have had this same one on one with God numerous times. So, ya know what God did to shut me up? He gave me a song. Now mind you, I have heard this song a dozen times before — even have it on my music player. But never before yesterday have I listened to the words.
You look around, staring back at you
Another wave of doubt, will it pull you under?
You wonder What if I’m overtaken?
What if I never make it?
What if no one’s there?
Will You hear my prayer?
When you take that first step into the unknown You know that He won’t let you go
So what are you waiting for?
What do you have to lose?
Your insecurities, they try to hold to you
But you know you’re made for more,
so don’t be afraid to move
Your faith is all it takes, and you can walk on the water, too
From that first verse, the tears started to fall. I mean, a God — a Father who loves me SO much sent a song just FOR ME — to minister to my aching heart. How could you not love Someone like that?
It was an eventful day, but by the end of the song — my heart was confident again in what He is calling me to do. I am scared to death, but I have to take this step. I am afraid of the unknown, but I know who is in charge so that makes me a little less afraid.
Here is the song in its entirety. I hope it brings you as much peace as it brought to me yesterday.