Today I sit here at my computer and I just realize how hectic life has gotten for me. It is something that I never thought I would allow to happen, but it has. When life gets like this, all I can dream of doing is taking a step back.
Because of the hecticness of this lifestyle I am living, I crave for just drawing back and doing nothing — no social media, no computers, no television. Just me, my family, and the things I love to do like reading, crocheting, and cooking.
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Today’s Prompt: In Between
Today, I am in between breaths. I am finding it hard to breathe again. Every single time I think I know what I want to do with my life, things suck me back and I feel stuck again.
Have you ever watched a baby bird who is just getting its feathers and almost ready to take that big leap in the air, but not really sure? He teeters on the branch raising one leg and then the other. He makes himself stand tall as he flaps his wings checking out to see if they are really going to work or not. He stands there unsure of himself, thinking — “maybe I should, but then again, maybe I shouldn’t. The next thing you know, Momma Bird has come along and shoved Baby bird right out of the nest.
Hey y’all! Happy Saturday This week has been a doozy with so many things on my mind. I’m linking up today with Kris from Weird Unsocialized Homeschoolers for Weekly Wrap Up. This is a great way for me to look back at my week and see exactly how things went.
Yesterday, Kayla and I headed to Hopkinsville to celebrate my mother-in-law’s birthday. We were both pretty excited about it. There is nothing more that we love, than spending time with her and making her feel special.
Today’s prompt for Five Minute Friday: View
Honestly, I don’t even know where I should start. My view right now makes me numb. Staring at the screen all day, doing things I would rather not be doing– it makes me extremely numb.
You see, I stumbled on a book this morning that has made me finally say it. I am a writer. I am not a blogger. I am not a virtual assistant. I am a writer. The view I want more than anything right now is the view of me typing away and sharing the stories that are within me.
Sunday was pretty much a numb day for me. I spent most of that day wrestling with God. I was in a foul mood from the time I got up, but I was really trying to keep it to myself because this was Robert’s day — his graduation day and I did not want any of my meltdowns to have an effect on his special day. So I pretty much just kept quiet.
Later that day however, Stephen said something that I did not agree with to our son, and instead of being quiet, I lashed out at him. Now normally, when I lash out — it is over and done with in just a few minutes. But on this day — because of how I was feeling, I just kept it going and going. For some reason, I just could not let things go.
This past week God has really been doing a number on all my “perfections” that I think I need to have in my life. My blog, my writing, my cooking, my home, how I school my daughter, my relationship with my husband — everything in my eyes has to be “just so so” in order for me to feel complete. However, little by little, God is removing this perfect look in my eyes and is replacing it with a look of what being real looks like.
The thing that I have come to realize is this — I don’t really care how people see me, as long as they know that I am real.
I have really been burdened lately by a lot of things going on in my life. I am just super busy, and while I loved that life for a very long time, my body is begging me to start cutting back on things. I feel like I am in a phase of my life where I need to slow down and just breathe. Have you ever felt that way?
It’s hard to explain how I feel, really. People ask me and all I can say is that I feel like everything is spiraling out of control and there is nothing I can do about it. School was pretty much a fail this year. I worked more than I taught my daughter which has really left me feeling like a bad homeschool parent.
My blog is not going in the direction I want it to, and I blame that on part because I have been so busy with everything else that I just have been ignoring it and then throwing up something just to have a post up that day.
My work life has been so busy that I feel like the youth ministry that we lead has been neglected which cannot happen. I need those kids and they need me and my husband.
Life is just really busy and whether I want to or not, God is drawing a line in the sand and telling me that I am soon gonna have to take inventory of what is going on in my life and make some serious changes. I am not sure if I am ready to make those changes, but if I don’t, I feel like my health, my ministry, my child’s education, my work — everything will suffer.
Have you felt that way before? How did you handle it?
I know that once I do get through this, I will be a better person because of it. This is a battle that the Lord is asking me to stand strong and fight. He is really wanting to do something with my life — and I can either listen to Him and get joy out of this, or I can keep fighting Him and be miserable my entire life. I choose joy instead of misery.
Knowing that God trusts me to make the right decision helps me in some way to choose the path I know He wants me to take. I just have to really take that step of faith and know that He will be there to lead and guide me.
If you are struggling with a decision today — know that He is there for you. Trust Him. Let Him guide you
For those bloggers that live to travel, all I can say after this weekend is MORE POWER TO YA! Oh my goodness– I cannot even begin to tell you the horrors of my Friday afternoon.
After finishing up an amazing press trip with @Hotpockets and learning some very important culinary information about myself, I headed to the Cleveland airport to get prepared to board my flight to head home. As soon as I was checking in — I got the worst news ever — my flight had been cancelled.
Now, I have never had this happen before, so I am immediately going into panic mode. I go to the desk, and the United Clerk assures me everything is fine, so he puts me on another flight that leaves at 5:30. It is now 5:00 and I have yet to make it through security.
At 5:20 I am through security and walking as fast as I can to the gate to board my plane. As I get to the gate, I see that they have delayed the flight until 7pm. Okay — so far, this was good. I had a little time. My other flight did not depart from Chicago until 9:14 so I knew that would leave me plenty of time.
Two more times during the next hour at Cleveland, my flight was delayed. I was beginning to panic again as I realized that I might not get home that night. It was frustrating. At this point, I felt like every hair on my body was being removed by a laser hair removal machine.
Finally at 8:40pm, we boarded the airplane to head to Chicago. The flight took longer than expected and I just knew that my other flight from Chicago to Paducah had already taken off.
After deboardning the plane and getting to my new gate, I am then told that my flight from Chicago to Paducah has been delayed and won’t take off until 10:40pm. I was relieved that I did not have to miss my flight because I really wanted to be home.
10 minutes later, I look up and they have delayed the flight until 11:15 — 30 minutes later, the flight was delayed until 12:05.I just kept thinking to myself — this is crazy! What is going on!
Finally at 11:30pm, we get on the plane in Chicago and start making our way to Paducah.
Now the real fun starts.
About halfway home to Paducah (which is only an hour plane ride), we hit a windshear and our engine on the plane is damaged. I AM FREAKING OUT by this point. The pilot comes on the speaker and tells us all not to worry that we are going to turn around and go back to Chicago for maintenance to the plane.
Once we get back, United Express gave us all a room and food vouchers to use and booked us on the next flight out the following day. Thankfully everything worked out ok, but this trip has me rethinking about going away all the time. I truly think I would rather drive, but then again, I would miss all the fun opportunities.
Yes– I was terribly frightened, but I realized that God had everything under control. I prayed and asked God to close the door on any decision I would have made that would have been wrong that night. I knew the right thing would be to just stay the night and leave the next morning, but my flesh wanted me to be home with my family, so I was choosing to just plow through all the bad weather and put my life in danger just to get home. God saw fit to take care of that for me and have the flight cancelled just to keep me safe.
Don’t think that just because your plans change that it is an inconvenience to you. God may just be protecting you from harm that you cannot see.
What about you? Have you ever went through anything like this?